If you're a fan of "The Big Bang Theory", chances are you recognize that phrase. When Raj said it in an episode a couple of years ago, I thought it was hysterical. And then I forgot about it until my husband summed up my mood with that phrase.
Today was a BIG day for me. RT Book Review Magazine's March issue (the digital copy) came out today. And guess who has the cover story??? ME!! The only reason I
was aware of this was because I was scrolling through my newsfeed on Facebook and there it was! My heart started racing and I jumped up from my seat and immediately picked up the phone and called my mom and then my husband and was just giddy!
And then I cried.
I mean I cried a LOT.
At first, they were totally tears of joy. I made it! I've hit a milestone in my career that I never thought possible. And then...I was crying because someone special wasn't there with me. My grandma. She was a lifelong reader of romances and she died before I started self-publishing. There are times when something really exciting happens in my career and I think "Grandma would have loved this!" I know she's looking down at me and smiling and I like to think that she's proud. But I miss her.
So when my husband got home from work today, I pulled up the article and showed it to him and shared how I felt earlier when I read it. He looked at me and smiled and said, "Tears of joy, smiles of sadness". I know he said it to lighten the mood and it did. I did smile, but I was still a little bit sad.
The grandmother in "Return to You" is totally based on my grandma. I just wish she was here to read it.